|The Praise of Folly||
No I do not go to Mars Hill Church, and actually live no where near the Mars Hill Church Plants, but I love listening to his sermons! Take a few hours to listen to his sermons sometime! Really good and challenging stuff! His current sermon series he is going through is "Ephesians".
Alright, so at Southeastern University for the next three weeks the school will be having a campus wide fast for those who choose to do it. The first week is supposed to be the Daniel Fast, in which a person refrains from meats and dairy products and restricts his or herself to a diet of just fruits and veggies essentially.
The second week of the fast is a "media fast" in which people refrain from social networking and using the internet and television for things other than educational use. The third week is a fast of something of the students own choice.
The reason why SEU is having this campus wide fast is because they want people to be in prayer for the upcoming SEU Conference that will be happening in Downtown Lakeland, Fl at the Polk Theatre. The Fasting that the students do should allow them to really keep a ready heart and spirit to be constantly in prayer about the things that they wish for God to do within the school, their heart, and even their relationships.
I wanna let you all know that when it comes to things like this I actually hate just doing something because everyone around me is doing it. My church back home in D.C. was doing the Daniel Fast at the beginning of this year and I chose not to do it with them simply because I felt as if my heart was in the wrong place. For me to do this fast with them would have just been because they were doing it and I felt like doing it just to say I was doing it with them.
I am hesitant to even write about fasting because I do not want to be seen as the Pharisees that Christ talks about who "wear it on their faces" that they are fasting so that others would look at them and think that they are so righteous and holy because they are fasting (Matthew 6:5). That is not why I am writing about Fasting.
I am writing because this semester at school I have already seen the work of God in my heart and in my life in such an amazing way, and I can already see things that I can honestly say WILL NEVER BE ACCOMPLISHED if not by the grace of God. God says that there are certain things that can only come about through prayer and fasting (Matthew 9:29) and so I am through prayer and fasting asking God to work through his steadfast love to come through and bring about the things that would bring him the most glory through and through.
I am not fasting because I believe I am strong, I am fasting because I am weak and my God is strong. Not trying to be "corny" I am just speaking the truth. I am incredibly weak and need God to work in my college, my relationships, my heart, my financial problems, my city both here in Florida and D.C., and also my family. I have many things I am fasting and praying for and believe God hears every single one of them.
Thanks for reading this. I am just speaking a little from my heart. Hope this post in some way can touch your heart also. God bless.
I haven't blogged in a little while. Why? Well one of the last posts I wrote talked about how I wished to not blog as much because I would be so indulged into living a life for Christ and being about his work that I could not find time to go and blog on my computer.
Well, as much as I hoped this would be true, it was only true for as long as I allowed it to be true to my heart. I fell away from the passion I had for almost a good month. I became so overcome with focusing on myself. Focusing on whether or not I was "supposed" to go back to the College that I presently attend. Focusing on "my music" and recording "my'" EP. I was so focused on "my" girlfriend, "my" friends and family, and "my" life in general that I forgot that this life that I live is no longer mine.
I had become consumed with the thoughts of money and making money and being "successful" (I put quotations around the word because I believe success is based off of perspective) in life presently and in the future to come.
I just could not shake focusing on myself...until God softened my heart.
God in his grace and mercy showed me that he truly does know what his Children need before we even ask of it (Matthew 6:8). God, the day before I was supposed to fly down to Florida to go back to Southeastern University, opened up a way for me and my family to be able to receive every bit of money we had asked for in financial aid.
God, when I got back to Southeastern, softened my heart when I was able to go into a worship setting in a chapel at my school and finally not focus on other people and judging them, but instead sincerely and truly worshiping him and praying for them. God has spoken to my heart about joy, about suffering, about idol worship, and about purity in some of the greatest ways since I have been back at school and it's only been a little over a week since I have been here.
I wish I could sit here and explain every little detail that is coursing through my mind at this moment. I have so much on my heart that I wish to share, but the truth is I am so physically tired and my brain just isn't allowing me to organize my thoughts as well as I wish I could.
What I just want to say before I finish writing is that...I'm thankful. I'm thankful for being saved by grace through faith and not by works. I am thankful for the suffering whether emotional, financial, or physical. I am thankful for the word of God that has consistently found it's way into my being and attacked my heart at its core, over and over again. I am thankful that I have a blog to be able to share the way I am feeling and the way that God is moving to people all over the world (whether they read it or not haha).
I hope all of this makes sense haha I honestly do not know if it will because I am extremely tired. I love you all. God bless. I do plan to write more.